Today I woke up and first thing I thought " Gawd, it is really Friday!"
SO this marked the end of my first week in this mix animals practice.
It had been an eye opener for me who havent been to a mix practice before.

I never thought I would ever say this in my life but look how vet school can change a person! I was so excited to see pus! A lame cow with perhaps penetration of a foreign body or a crack in the white line causing abscessation and inflammation.

This morning I went out with Glen and I was so excited to hear pings and sloshing of the displaced abomasum in a cow that had just calved about 3 weeks ago, off feed and not producing milk. FINALLY, all those readings in the textbook and wondering how it is all done and looks like. Awesome.
We saw 2 lame cows as well and one of them was footrot.

Results are out next week Wednesday and I am still very hang up on it and very very nervous. I can literally pee in my pants and feel my heart jump outta my thorax while sitting on the chair and clicking on "My Results" tab. Urgh one of the worst feelings in the world ever!!

There is one more week here and weather is warming up which is fantastic. Being cold and WET has gota be the worst combi ever! I am glad that I avoided that by coming here in summer instead of winter. Although, in VIC the busy calving season is in winter, I rather not freeze and come during this season. AH well, at least I gotta see a LDA today!! Pardon my nerdy excitment. Really it was exciting seeing something outta the textbook.

I say being busy have been treating me good. I like working because it keeps my mind off things. I wouldnt want to sit on the sofa and sulk, missing my boyfriend whom btw I havent spoken in days because he is in the land of no mobile and missing my doggies and missing food back home. This year has gotten me so homesicked! The worst in 5 years!

EXAMS are OVERRRR! I am currently still recovering from the shock. Shock from the fact that I've been having 13 exams continuously for the past 5 weeks. Frigging 5 weeks being stucked in my room studying and dying from the lack of sleep! Yesterday was the first time I set foot in the city after a whole 5 weeks.

I'll be off to Warrnambool tomorrow for a whole 2 weeks for clinical work in the large animal clinic there. I am looking forward to it. Certainly a 'break' from studying for the time being before I am back. As I typed this I am so nervous and scared of my results. I really really need to pass them. Its freaking me out so much and stressing me out that I still do get nightmares. What can I say I am a panic monkey. I guess there is no peace of mind till the results are out in 10 days time!! =S

In the meantime, it is nice to have long skype time with my Cherrie and Parents. And my boyfriend needs to hurry back from Brunei so i can skype with him!!! I miss you baby =((

Cherrie darling is smiling into the webcam! Isnt she adorable!?








xx jul

While I was finishing my pig enteric diseases lecture, the end slide put, thought for the day:

" Never hold your farts in. They travel up your spine, into your brain, and that is where shitty ideas come from !!!!"

Hmm its a good thought.

But people! If you're within my range, do hold it in. I dont mind shitty ideas for that sec.

I am finished with 5 out of my 8 exams. I am extremely exhausted to a point there are no words that can express the amount of stress that is crushing me as I struggle through for a breath. People always say that they are stressed and at times I wonder if they are saying because the words " I am very stressed" is easily spoken from their mouths. When you are really stressed, your world turns upside down, you cannot eat, you cannot sleep a single minute in the night without having nightmares or worries haunting you, dragging you from your sweet dreamland into hell land. You even begin to doubt if life is worth living because it is just so hard to be in it. You start crying so much and spontaneously that your tear ducts begin to run out of tears. You stare into the air, absolutely lost in the meaning of having a place on this Earth. The stare in your eyes say so much yet you remain speechless.

I am glad that when I am speechless there is always this beep from my mobile, encouraging me not to give up and to hold on through tough times because tough times dont last but tough people do. Or faces on my screen telling me to think about the vacation there is to come and to believe that I can pull through. The comfort that my parents, my boyfriend and some close friends give is the only thing that keeps me breathing, not the oxygen. And you come to realise that without them in your life, life is not life.

I miss you Baby and I cant wait for Christmas to come when I am back home. All I think of now is us and your parents sitting down for yummy food and I can finally relax with a peace of mind, knowing I can hug you! Please please please take super good care in Brunei. I'll pray for a "safe" jungle haha. Know that every single star in the galaxy is a good night hug. Every bird chirping in the morning is my good morning. Hopefully its enough to last for the 3 weeks. Hang in there and be strong. I know you will be alright. I hate that I wouldnt be able to msg you. I love you.

I cant wait for my present from Daddy either!

Oh this week needs to end and I need to restart my engine tonight to start cramming before I regret and panic on Monday night!! Oh gawd, please help.

Baby we need to run away because you are going to be tortured in the nasty man-eating jungles in Brunei while I am sucked deeper and buried alive by the amount of whole year work that I am supposed to get into my brain in less than 2 days. Shucks.
I miss you so much.

Cattle spot test could have been better and practical exam was alright but some stations made me very stupid. I cant bear to face some examiner esp Rod next year again. Gawd stupid answers i gave. I asked him to repeat the AI station qns twice, giving myself time to think but he must have been irritated by me. Especially since we are the last group to be examined! Loved Andres hoof trimming station.

The examiners/ lecturers/ tutors were nice and they did guide you through when you were stucked or dumbfounded ( at oestrus synchronisation and bull examination stations!! Apparently the black bull was lame hindlimbs but jul just couldnt see it! I blame bull for showing off to me). Nonetheless it actually was better than expected.

Damn they give us no time to study and no break before swottie!

Sometimes I really meltdown down and though I think I can work under stress or so I will like to think that, it screws with my body. As a young adult, you should be taking care of your body but I dont seem to do that very well. I forget to eat, I dont sleep enough (like most of us), I get alottt of panic attacks, I still havent learned to be less uptight about things.

I better get going studying for equine spot test!!
Good luck vet kiddies! Just 8 more exams and hopefully we're done with 4th year. =)

The past few days had been very overwhelming for me. I was busy rearranging and planning for end of the year and also next year. Yes you hear me, I have to plan for everything till October 2010. I feel extremely organised.

Good news here: I get to celebrate Christmas, Chinese new year, Vday and half a day of my birthday in Singapore!!
Originally I get to spend only Christmas with love ones.
I am glad that God is so kind and after all these mess, I am so fortunate to be able to change my entire 3 weeks of internship with the teaching hospital to this December.
So December sees me through 5 weeks straight of work.
I will arrive on Christmas day arvo.

I am looking forward to my few hours in Singapore on Christmas with Baby before I jet off to HK for a mth for clinical work. (Hi jess dear cant wait for our major catch up!)
I cant wait for the China trip with Mommy and Daddy after one month work in HK. Yummy seafood once again in Zuhai and super super mouth watering cantonese food in Guangzhou especially Landmark hotel restaurant. Oh heaven! I am so lucky to be back there again.

I promise I will be back in Singapore end of January for 3 weeks=)

I am not complaining despite the hectic schedule because I get to celebrate the best 4 occasions (the bestest of best is still chinese new year) in Singapore with Kenneth and my family.

Oh I am very very delighted and relieved now.

Time to nappie and study for my Thur and Fri exams. Wish me luck.

There are lots of cattle and equine practical work to study for. I am beginning to have a panic attack! Without finishing these 2, I cant start studying for the 7 massive exams that follows!

I am still coughing. It doesnt allow me to run! I will have a coughing fit while running. How fustrating!

I have to get through just ONE more month of hard yards.
I simply cannot wait for Christmas back home, a whole month of internship in HK and super yummy food and once again back here for clinical work on 1st Feb next year. Oh forgoing CNY and so many other impt events in Feb!

Im gathering all my motivation. Urgh trust me, it gets so difficult at home when you are missing your love ones terribly and well being my lazy procastinating self.

Alright off to SSH now. =) Find me there with a cup of coffee in hand and my chocolate chip cookies.

Today and tomorrow are self studying days I declared.

While I was studying, I made frequent trips down to the common room to eat. I can NEVER focus can I?! Hrmp.

SO so that explains why I am online once again!



Doesnt he look cute? I love this photo because it's simply my art work.




Can u see mochi powder on our lips hahah. Now there's someone who loves to eat GOOD stuff as much as I do.




Sunshine state made me a sunnies freak and we have endless photos of us in sunnies.


Looking good! (The seafood I meant! Sorry Baby, seafood wins by 0.1% this time =D) We are crazy about seafood. Here's Moreton bay bugs & really sweet Alaskan crabs!



Yes I miss my boyfriend super duper muchie. Ah fast forward time! OCS doesnt only torture you but me as well.

Now its cattle time.

Miss you guys reading this in Singapore and ESPECIALLY Hongkong! <3